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Last week I made the decision to open up and share something personal with you. This blog has encouraged me to see the good in my life, even when I did not want to see it. It is not to be confused as a veil, there are still dark moments that linger longer than I would like to admit. And the intention of this space is not to be a diary, there is a fine line between a confessional outpour and simple honesty. I believe social media and sharing online can be a positive catalyst to generate good energy in the world.

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The pictures include some images I made throughout the week. A selection of moments I captured as the week progressed. Carrying my camera with me is not a daily custom, but it is something I desire to make a habit. It cultivates small digital reminders that leave me feeling accomplished.

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To wrap up, I’d like to ask you to look at your days honestly, just as I have, and consider a few simple upgrades. It’s not always easy to be a better version of yourself, but taking the analog approach and consciously doing the work will make one hell of a difference just by trying.

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xx-nasty trash

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Without warning

The engine comes closer

My bones feel it

The weight of it

The sensation approaches all in a moment

Without warning

My mind is distracted

Taken back

Almost 10 years

My body remembers

Without warning

 I am reminded

Every time I undress

My body remembers

Without warning

The car backs up

I break some more

One last look at the stars

Before the questions start

What’s your name

Where do you live

Do you know where you are

Without warning

I’m taken to the sky

In an instant I am numb

The sound of the flight takes me beyond the pain

I spend weeks away

Without warning

My whole world changed

-PTSD

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xx – nasty trash

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This week my inspiration came from a few different places. The images collected are based on an Instagram challenge called #FreeUpMyInsta. Whilst following Alexia Booker (@LostFoundKeep) and her daily vlogs all month long, she mentioned a new challenge developed by Allison Sadler. It is a beautiful concept designed to motivate others to appreciate our day to day lives, and worry less about a number of likes, quality of content, or curated images. The following images are my interpretation of the challenge.

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 1. Look Up // Lately, when you look up, grey skies surround the most unique colors of the year. This image is from my very own backyard. Although it may not seem like much, to me, this view changes and grows every day, just like me.

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2. Inspiration // I quickly captured this image whilst briskly walking by. I am currently victim to the Baader-Meinhof phenomenon, and vans are my repeated encounter. At some point in my life, I hope to live carefree in a van with the world as my backyard. But for now, I will continue to wander streets and fantasize about each van I see.

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3. Bloom // While October is not famous for any new foliage, the colors are something similar to a firework show. I also enjoy the woman walking in the image, and the bundle of golden maple leaves she has collected to take home. I only imagine she has a craft to create or a seasonal centerpiece to display in her kitchen.

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4. Simple Pleasures // Helsinki Trams. I love Helsinki Trams. The iconic yellow and green paint job is maybe one of my favorite things about the city. Only second to riding around enjoying the scenic streets and bayside sights pass by.

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5. Friday Fun // Confession time, this image was taken on Tuesday. During this period of my life, I have had to adjust my schedule, routines, and sense of purpose. But the most rewarding part of it all has been the Tuesday afternoons that feel like Fridays. The moments when I can have a spontaneous adventure with my husband, despite time, location, or finances. Life has many seasons, and I know this one will not last forever, but I am going to soak it all up while I still can.

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6. Explore // It was not clear how this image would turn out, but I am so pleased with the outcome. At 6ft tall I had to stretch my arms overhead to capture the top of this garden shed. It may not be your interpretation of exploration, but the way we view things can be a new adventure when given the chance to observe something from an alternative perspective. If anything, you will have no other choice except to explore the corners of your mind and wander your imagination.

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7. Favorite // This is my favorite picture this week. A quiet back street makes the perfect autumn postcard image. I feel as though the picture speaks for itself.

This challenge was a great way to think differently about my day to day surroundings. I would like to encourage the challenge to all of you. It does not have to result in a blog post or an Instagram, but instead, consider the world around you in these seven themes. I hope it provokes a sense of awe and contempt as you actively engage with your surroundings.

xx – nasty trash

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As predicted, I have returned to the botanical gardens. This trip is more intimate than the inaugural, yet it was just as satisfying. A slow tram ride through the city carried me from my neighborhood to the garden entrance, and thus the adventure began.

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The content brings to light what I fail to experience in reality. The seasons are transitioning across the globe. Social media likes to remind us all when the change occurs, even if it is at the expense of our personal comfort. I enjoy seeing the leaves change color in Helsinki, the spring surf pictures from Cape Town, and the seasonal sunset shots people capture from around the world but take it too far at times and I begin to wonder why I’m not somewhere else.

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To respond to this global FOMO epidemic, the botanical gardens are my saving grace. On this particular day, I enjoyed the crisp autumn air, golden leafy textures, combined with dry cactus arrangements, humid rainforest foliage, and summer green aesthetic… all within a few meters from the other.

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I’m grateful for this little garden space. It is as if I can easily transport to a different scene, without a plane ticket, passport, or bikini wax, and experience something totally different than the moment before.

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Until next week,

xx – nasty trash

 

 

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Last week was the Autumnal equinox, and two years ago marks the day I wed my best friend. In celebration of that fact, we decided to spend the weekend abroad in Denmark. The second anniversary is the cotton anniversary, and although we failed to find a cotton souvenir, we accomplished much more in our little trip.

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The weekend started in Copenhagen where we met up with an old friend from our time as exchange students. Without missing a beat we shared stories, breakfast, and memories just like when we all lived together years ago.

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Following a day of wandering the capital, we took a train to the little city of Odense. This is a small city and could easily be looked over on a map. Only famous for its past resident and renowned author, Hans Christian Andersen.

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We were smitten the whole weekend wandering this village. Our Airbnb was perfectly nestled in the center of the town, and as we explored the cobblestone roads, church bells would serenade our adventure.

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Denmark is a wonderful place, and it is my mission to return frequently and learn more about their enlightening culture. As for our anniversary weekend, it was magic, as is every day being married to the one I love.

xx-nasty trash

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Earlier this year, I went around town on a photo mission. Since then the seasons have changed, but my inspiration has lingered throughout the year. I found myself biking down a familiar route, and enjoying the contrasting architecture and water vistas of Helsinki.

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The seasons have yet to turn officially, but autumn has surely made a mark in corners of the capital. Even though what matters most is that for now the warmth of the sun can still be felt on the skin, and the sky still does that big, blue, beautiful thing.

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I am embracing the next season with open arms and an open mind. In hopes to welcome new changes in my habits, career, and perspective. Still apprehensive about the ominous winter that follows, it is time to shed past practices that no longer serve me. All this, whilst living in Helsinki.

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xx – nasty trash